day after the storm

So I feel empty

good feeling
and now the waiting start

we cleanced the air yesterday
so Why dont I feel ALL good?
why do I have the thought "when is the next time"?
"how long will it last this time?"

why do I expect this to happen again?

So now there is only the matter of my husbands best friend

sad to say, I dont have much respect for him at the moment
Honesty far too late, after treating one of my best friends very badly.
Honesty far too late, hurting my husband.
how can one forgive that?
Worst is, he has done this before. He still haven't learned.
Will he ever?

If he hurts my husband again, he'd be wize to stay away from me.