09 May 2006

The pain

Sometimes I want to cut away my entire body.

I get so tired of not having anything to show ppl I actually am not well
I cant even prove my sickness with some kind of seisure, bloodtest or anything else
it is not visual
no proof

I even envie some friends having anxiety problems, since they acutally SHOW
I HAD anxiety myself
people actually helped me when they saw my attacks
noone disbelieved me

And now?
Im just a whiner.. Nothing wrong with me of course! How can it be when nothing shows?

No wonder they look strangely at me when I sometimes utter a word of pain..

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