a different girl

Sometimes I feel alien

I want to help mankind. But mankind is too god damn arrogant to see they need help

the very few who do, does not always seek it. And those who do, seek help at the wrong places.

What is wrong with us humans? How can we not see the ones to trust or not?

New job

I did get the job btw. So Im advancing. Some say going backwards. Im leaving the best group for.. the best group..

Well, I will advance, at least in my own eyes. Around xmas and new year, I will move to the HP Kana team. I will take a part in the email support and be multiskilled agent. That will really give me what I need to get a callcenter job somewhere else.

If I want to move.

We'll see what happens.

Wednesday

the bitch apologised. Doesnt make her my friend.

Besides that it seems like im getting under the skin of a girl at work. She needs someone to trust, not that I intend to be that one, but it seems like she has chosen me.

Hope I can be worthy

And I was told a package I had given away some year ago, finally has come to its use. It has done the job. Wonderful, Baka :)

fuckups

So the bitch managed to poop in my garden.
Wonderful.

The bedroom is finished

Man Im so sore!
I ace all over, just like I didt after the very first times I was riding ;)

We redecorated the bedroom yesterday. We spent like 6 hours on it, excluding the small breaks here and there. Reason for that many hours was that my husband had problems with his hand. Very much pain, so I was left to do most of the work by myself.
He helped all he could tho. During the day his hands got a bit better, so I continued doing most the work, but he helped more.
He wanted to help more than I allowed him, but I reminded him about all the stuff we needed to carry in. Aaaah he said, I need my hands for that. True.

but now we're done. Its all the small bits and stuff, decorative stuff mostly, to get in there. All the furnitures are in there allready. Feels good to se something else but the blue stripes...

I get so happy by redecorating. Even tho its a pain in the ass to do, I love it, Even if I get pains the entire next day I still love it :)

And the plan is to redecorate the hall in 2 weeks. Maybe I'll wait some more before I take the hall...

Winds of changes

So
Today the bedroom is getting all brand new.
And my friend is getting some boxes to start packing.
She starts her new job the 10th of october.

At least she probably will be here on my husbands birthday.
Perhaps we should celebrate with her?

And she gets a fuzz from the grandmother of her daughter
She can never be good enough to that woman.
That woman is constantly nagging on her for something. Some small detail, something unthinkable or anything that pleases her to nag my friend about.
But this time my friend told her a few things back. In a pollite controlled manner.

About time. GO GIRL!
sometimes you are so DAMNED slow!

so enter the fight my dear, I will cover you! *lock and load*

strange day

Its strange. Today Im getting the new wallpapers. So I can redecorate the bedroom :)

and I applied for a new job. Rumours has it we'll know today who is getting the job

Next week my sister is coming.

The week after my mum.

That very same weekend I will redecorate the hall

This will be busy weeks!

Strange

Strange how things all of a sudden change. Here I was, feeling okish about my job, and all of a sudden I get a new offer.

I will not talk into details about the offer yet, but its kinda twisting my world upside down

Sunday

It is sunday morning. Rather late morning but still.
Fell asleep around 2. Or later. Too much pain to sleep for a while.
Listening to my husband enjoying himself in vendetta with a friend and her brother
Sometimes I consider paying for vendetta in order to join him there
But then again, we have AO to play together. Perhaps I should take a trip to Rubi-Ka today

I intend to just do what I want to do today. After all dishes are put away and Ive eaten breakfast

I WAS thinking about making lasagna for dinner today, but I really dont know If I can manage to make it by myself. Perhaps we'll just settle for somethin light eaten.

and tomorrow I'll be back at work. As Mrs Simonsen Vold
Gonna be kinda strange.

End for now
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Lazy sunday. I got Victor for visit today. We watched The Shining. The mini-series, not the movie. we both like it now. Nice actually, its been a while since ive chattet so long with him

Well, off to make dinner now.

Not for you

You cant grasp me!

I know you are trying
I sence you outside my sphear

you cant grasp me!

I am not for you to hold.
I am not for you to even consider

you cannot have me
You cannot know me
I am not for you
not for anyone outside my choise

Why even try?

You cannot touch me
You cannot know what you are doing
You do not know who you are dealing with

So why die?

A friend is moving.

For some time Ive been spending a lot of time with one spesific friend. She was the one saying she'll never leave. Now she is leaving.
I know the reasons, something else would be odd, but its still rather strange.

The biggest problem, I think, Is that I dont really think she is leaving entirely on free will. I think someone destroyed this home for her, by bringing the past back to her in a way non of us expected.

lameness in Ljusdal again. thought we had got rid of all the jerks. All the time new ones fall in.

Ah well, just shows me to be very careful whom to trust.

At first she was happy with her choise.
She still is.
Just, she is a tad .. depressed. No wonder really. I know how much she wanted to stay here. We talked about getting a place together, her family and mine. Me getting a small farm, with a small house for rental, her renting it for a symbolic amount of money. Big enough for her and her daughter, and for her to have her sowing firm at home.

Seems like all those plans will have to rest for some time. Unless I move down there to realize the dreams where she moves to.

Thought IS kinda tempting. Where she moves, I wouldnt be far from a couple of new friends Ive made through the website I am webmastering.
Second, moving down there would make sure my husband would meet his brother rather often.
well, will just have to see whats happening.

And then Im married

I just finished my last post in the diary on the website we made for the wedding. Kinda strange that its all over now.
But it feels great to be married. All over it doesnt really feel any different than being engaged, just.. its different and yet not.
I am happy, I am content. We got loads of wonderful presents for the wedding. Lots of things we needed, and all of it things we wished for as well. And most important: almost everyone added some money as well, since we wished for money to buy a GREAT bed. Wich we have ordered, along with a sofa and a stressless.

So now I enter the world of a married woman.
Does this mean I cant have any fun? hell no! I enjoy life with my husband, and I intend to have fun as well :)